Do you ever find yourself trying to force your relationships to mirror others? Like, we all see those mattress commercials with couples all cuddled up and think… that looks cozy. And then, you go to bed and try and cuddle but your husband’s beard is scratchy, the wife’s snoring and the dog is pinning down the covers. So, you give up on the idealistic cuddle, roll over and lay down in the Heisman position and pass out into a pool of drool.
Please tell me it’s not just me….
Read MoreThough I find it easy to bleed out parts of my story as an offering of what Jesus is doing in my life, there are chapters seemingly unmentionable. I struggle with communicating the periodical brokenness I feel around things related to physical intimacy. Like many children, I grew up with little to no supervision. Subsequently, much of my youth was spent trying to gain the respect of older kids. It was there, a teenager 7 years my senior (I was nine) held me down for three long years…
Read MoreI hate admitting negligence towards my dogs because I like to think I would never cause them harm. However, in drug addiction, I was not only negligent, but downright neglectful. Even though it wasn’t intentional, using made me unavailable to many of life’s demands. Bills went unpaid. I failed to show up to functions requiring my presence. I didn’t feed my animals, let alone myself…
Read MoreIt took a year for me to get de-programmed. Although I am grateful for the structure and wisdom programs provided me, they run in opposition to Gospel Truth. However, I still sometimes frequent their rooms. Not because I need to attend for sobrietys sake, but….
Read MoreHistorically, when rage sets in, The Hulk takes over and I self-sabotage by way of vices. When everything around me seems to be working against me, I get angry.
Read MoreAs my grandma used to say, “Running with the wrong crowd gets you nowhere.” Though drugs took me somewhere, eventually it was nowhere I wanted to be. For me, change looked like surrender. Once I admitted…
Read MoreIf only I could be half as good as his mullet was long, surely I would make it. But as many of us know, sometimes the things we want, turn out to be things we don’t. I found out greatness has a price.
Read MoreI am grateful for the people who never gave up on me, even though I did at one point…
Read MoreVocal Performance by Joshua’s Uncle: John Stephens.
Read More"There's something wrong with me. This isn't normal, right? I guess I just need to pray more or have more faith. I don't know. Maybe I'm just broken. I'm sorry to bother you with this. I probably sound so stupid."
Those are, loosely, the words I recall a young lady saying to me over the phone. I could hear it in her voice. She didn't actually believe the words that were coming out of her mouth. She was buying into a lie.
Read MoreHow A Father-In-Law can reflect the Father from above.
Read MoreThis is my testimony of how Jesus Christ set me free of the enslaving bondage of sin via its many manifestations throughout my life; pornography, alcohol, drugs, and many other idols.
Read MoreYou know how we tend to say, "Well, it can't get any worse" and then, it gets worse? June 12, 2017 - it got worse. That was the day I found out my husband of 2.5 years was experiencing drug addiction.
Read MoreI didn't hold back my anger or my tongue.
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